luster

Kicking 'round pieces
Watch how they scatter
Youthful illusions
Finally shatter

It's no use
No will left to muster
Every little shard
Has lost its luster

The days slim down
I'm growing tired
Rotting on the shelf
Until I'm expired

Fooled by the heart
And trod all over
Crows feast on the guts
Then flock to another

Songs sing of beauty
Media peddles delusion
The masses succumb
To the greatest illusion

With a gilded coat
And a core made of tin
Shaped like a heart
Pulsing with sin

I know love
I know the violence
Pinned down by the throat
Annoyed by my silence

I was young, naive
To new to this place
Every gash in my flesh
I gave it grace

The mask slips
As the bond grows stronger
A human no more
A human no longer

As much as I long
For a connection
I've weighed the costs
And chosen protection

Fallen to my knees
Accepting loss
The devil approaches
Wearing a cross

I found safety
In being alone
Call it reclusive
I call it home

I wish so hard
To see an end
Or pray to God
I never find love again